Merry Christmas from Roxy & Bella

I am going to let this post speak for it's self. My two girls are the best chritsmas, birthday, mother's day etc. gift in the world. They have made this year truely amazing. I am so blessed to have them.

It's beginning to look a lot like... I am way to busy

I am feeling WAY under the weather! So if this post doesn't flow or make much sense then let's just blame the fact I can't breath out of my nose, my body aches, and my heads pounding.

This weekend was busy on Saturday my cousin Stephanie and her graduation lunch and it was so good. Bass Pro shop has an amazing restaurant! Then it was off to shopping to finish up the kids Christmas gifts. It seems to be never ending it's like every weekend there's shopping to do! On Sunday I took the kids to a Christmas party. Bella hates Santa but loves gifts! She was so cute she kept running around with her gift and spinning around! I love how sweet Roxy can be with her little sister and how cute they are when Bella sits on Roxy's lap!
I have sooooo much to do the next 12 days every single day I have something planned to do or somewhere to be. This week involves getting Christmas pictures taken, doctor visits, painting, cleaning and decorating. And next week is going to be a hundred times busier. I have to cook, clean, wrap, and put together toys! I did plan my Christmas dinner menu though. I wanted to do something different so this year I am making: Apricot/Pomegranate Glazed Cornish Hens, Creamed Spinach, Roasted Hazelnut Green Beans, Potato Fennel Gratin, Homemade Rolls, Wild Mushroom Soup, Raspberry Chocolate truffle tarts, Mini Key lime Tarts and Mini Cheesecake Tarts. Along with crab cakes, artichoke dip, stuffed mushrooms and tomato mozzarella pesto stacks. So next week I will be busy baking and cooking!

I hope every one has a great week with so much planned I don't know how many post I will be doing but, I will post tomorrow our Christmas tree as promised and this week Bella's room will be finished once I paint the wall so I will post that too! Have a great Monday and I hope no one catches whatever I have it's horrid!

A visit with Santa

Grady and I took Bella to visit Santa on monday. She wanted nothing to do with him AT ALL! So we decided that we should all take a picture with santa... I know we all just look so thrilled lol. But, atleast we got a picture with him.

Sorry for the pic I took a picture of the picture with my cell phone

I dunno if I am proud of myself or ashamed

Roxy has been wanting the dip n dots frozen ice cream maker. To be honest I was almost as excited as she was when I saw this, what's better then having your favorite ice cream treat at home and not having to go to the mall just so you can get your dippin dots fix? I knew it was one her Christmas list of things to get and for some reason every time I went to the store it slipped my mind and they HAD tons of them. Had being past tense. I finally got my bootie into gear and decided to finish up there gifts and I went to toys r us they were sold out, target sold out, walmart sold out even on line it was SOLD OUT! I wan angry at myself for not getting it when I saw it. Until today I ran into walmart to get a couple of items and there it was starring me in the face. A lone dippin dots maker. I started walking faster and faster to get it and this lady just coast by and picks it up... I decided then that I wasn't going to let this go down without a "fight". So I walked by real quick and said "oh is there a  1 800 number on the box I already bought two of these and they don't work and I can't find our box" she looked at me and said oh two wow that's not good telling me her son wanted one but, she wasn't going to get if they had problems and sat it down and walked off... So needless to say I got the dip n dot maker and yes, I know karma is going to come down and Roxy's dip n dots maker won't work...Shame on me or applaud I haven't decided yet :)

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Say it isn't so!

I got some heart breaking news over the weekend! Roxy informed me Santa is NOT real. There just adults dressing up like him and pretending and elves aren't real either. Parents are just buying the gifts for kids! My heart sank,a tear rolled down my cheek and I had a horrible lump in my throat that prevented me from making a sound.

Now, I know Santa isn't real. But, the magic of believing in him is! I think I am more upset that Roxy is 6 and already finding this out. I was hoping she would like 16 before this moment happened! There is something so special about believing in Santa and his elves working that even as a grown adult with two kids I love to cherish.

Roxy promised that she would keep this secret to her self and not ruin the joy for her sister and lil cousin. But, this just means my "baby" is getting bigger and smarter and that there is one less thing holding her to child hood. One less magic moment. She seemed ok with this which surprised me, when i realized Santa wasn't real I was tears and i also almost ten! She sat there content and wise. Telling me "she knew for some time" (some time being like 2 days in her world) I just hope she keeps the "magic" part of Santa alive in her heart and that her sister waits til she's 16 to realize this whole "mystery"

Oh, and I dunno if I said this in my last blog or not but, I GOT THE JOB! I am sure excited I start the beginning of January!

A new years goal starting before the new year

I stole these pics from my wonderful cousins blog... Thanks for taking amazing photos Stephanie.

As a mom I have a flaw, well I am sure I have many but, this is a flaw I am actually admitting to and trying to work on. I never ever ever remember to take my camera with me anywhere! It's horrible! I have hundreds and hundreds of pics and videos saved on my cell phone but, actual really good photos are few and far between. So my new goal starting now is to carry my camera in my purse or Bella's diaper bag and take photo's of our memories big and small! We are almost done decorating our Christmas tree so I will be taking some pics for sure of that with the girls finishing it up. Bella's already broken one so at this rate by Christmas day we should have 25 less ornaments or she could stop touching and pulling them off. I think the 25 less ornaments is going to win!

shopping shopping shopping!



Roxy and Mommy Spa Day

 Roxy and me had a mommy and me spa day on Wednesdays. Bella was at day care so me and Roxy had some fun. We did face masks and put cucumber on our eyes, make-up, and painted our nails! We had a blast! I asked Roxy what she was thankful for, she said her mommy, Bella, maw-maw (what she calls my mom) and other family members, and then yelled I am thankful for the Indians and pilgrims cause if they wouldn't have gotten along we might not have make-up and nail polish... I guess that's one way to look at it!

This long weekend has been long! After Thanksgiving I decided it was time to get some serious Christmas shopping done. So Friday morning before the sun even thought of coming out me and my mom where off shopping. I must say some places had some amazing deals other, where big let downs! I didn't think target and walmart's sales were too amazing. JC Penny's had some great door busters, all there boots where 29.99 or less, my mom three great pairs normally over a hundred each for just 25. I was able to knock off must of the girls Christmas gifts, there are just a couple of things I still need to pick up but, nothing big. I still need to hurry up and go get there Christmas pictures done. Seems like time is going faster and my to-do list is getting longer.

Me and my mom took the girls to the Rain Forest Cafe. They loved it! Roxy walked around and looked at everything and had a blast! Bella sat in her high chair and had the time of her life pointing and looking at everything. Def. a must go place if you have kids, or even if you don't!

I have a job interview tomorrow for a floral shop. I am really hoping I get this job. Finger's crossed! The hours are pretty good too. Work three days during the week and on Saturday.

Bella still has not been sleeping thru the night... She knows how to get out of her crib so it looks like its time for a toddler bed but, she doesn't sleep thru so I have a feeling someone will be getting up and playing in the middle of the night.

Roxy wasn't looking forward to school this morning, she wanted to stay home. She kept telling me her stomach hurt... I hope she was just wanting to stay home. Nothing is worse then getting a call from the school nurse when your child is sick and you told them to stop faking.

And normally I post pictures of the girls but, today I am posting pics of myself. Since Roxy's at school and Bella's at day care I am declaring today Mommy Day! So that means after I get off here I need to clean bedrooms, do laundry, put the pot roast in the crock pot and get dressed for work. Wow so much fun on mommy day.

so thankful!

With Thanksgiving coming up I wanted to take a moment and say what I am thankful for. This week is going to be busy so I wanted to do it now just in case I don't get around to do it on Thursday.

I am thankful for my two gorgeous girls. They are so amazing! Roxy and Bella are truly gifts from God. And I thank him every day that I got blessed with them both!

My Mom, she is amazing mother who is caring and so helpful. She is always there for the girls and I and I proud to get to say I am her daughter.

My family, they are truly great and I am thankful for each and every one of them.

My friends, who are always there when I need them and always willing to listen!

There are tons of more things I am thankful for but, these are the people that I hold close in my heart and I wanted to take a moment for them. I am truly blessed even though I don't always seem to realize that. I think this is why Thanksgiving is my favorite Holiday. It's not about gifts it's about being thankful for what you already have. And I am very thankful! What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving?

An ER trip with Bella

Yesterday I got a fighting phone call from Bella's day care. "Bella is throwing up blood" my heart sank I grabbed my car keys. I got to her day care and she was looking really rough. Her eyes where glassy she was crying she had thrown up on all three changes of clothes that she had. I changed her into some clothes from the car that I keep just in case and rushed her to the ER. They whisked her right back. Luckily, it had not been blood she vomited, it was reddish brown fluid that had been draining in her ears. That makes 24 ear infections this year alone since tubes have been put in. They never clear up! One ear gets it the other ear gets it or they both get them together. The pain she has been in is unreal. She's 20 months and can only say mama, dada, hi and lub (love) and that's only when she wants to do it she won't ever do it if you ask her too. She's been through non-stop pain and since daycare has only completed 2 whole weeks without having to have a day off for ear infections. Luckily I met an amazing ENT while we were Memorial Herman SW. She thinks getting the tonsils and adenoids is the best idea. So it looks like while every ones getting ready for Christmas Bella will be having surgery and healing over Christmas vacation. I have heard that the week after this surgery is horrid. Between the pain and the not wanting to drink eat etc. is rough but worth it in the end. I am hoping and praying that this solves the ear issue. I am worried about her hearing and no one should have to be under that much pain all the time. I must say if you ever need to take your little one to the ER that Memorial Herman Kids is amazing. The brought Bella toys, Popsicles and bubbles into her room. They truly made an ER trip run smooth. Bella is now at home and resting. She's on 4 different med's and has an ENT appointment in a couple of days to set a surgery date. Thank you to everyone who has been keeping her in your prayers!

Sometimes a song can say it all!

its amazing how a lyric in a song can touch you and wrap into your own life. Like the song was meant for you. Lately I have been going through some personal issues. I don't want to dump them all on here just cause, it involves a lot of hurt and I have been down this path before and I know more hurt is to come because, you unfortunately have to hurt to be able to heal. And 2nd because I don't want to hear negative comments.


And, as I said yesterday I am happy about 2011 ( I didn't skip a year this time) I know that it will bring changes. Both good and bad. But, its a fresh start.

So here is the song that sums up my personal issues right now...Enjoy...

"well maybe we aint ment for this love"- rob thomas

Im Back!

Well... well... well.... look who it is... ME! I know I have been MIA for a while. I wish I could say I was off in the rain forest saving trees, or in Europe visiting Paris, saving baby elephants in Africa, or off in new york. Sigh... I was doing none of those things, not even close. Lets see the last month and a half I had a craptastic (yes, craptastic it's a blend so crappy its unbelievably fantastic... don't judge me...lol) 26th Birthday, Bella has been sick off and on, more on then off :(, I went to my first parent teacher conference and cried (more on that in a bit), went trick or treating with the cutest bumble bee and butterfly I've ever seen, went to school for floral design, started working part time,planning my amazing girls birthday that are a whole 5 and 7 months away, being a mom the most gorgeous 2 girls i know and dealing with some hard stuff in my personal life.

On my craptastic Birthday, Grady and I went out to dinner and I bit into my burger to crunch down on a piece of metal and I cracked my tooth. Needless to stay my tooth has been killing me and I won't be eating burgers any time soon. Grady did manage to turn things around with my birthday gift. He got me Versace Bright Crystal perfume and a versace makeup bag.

Bella has been fighting yet another viral infection and double ear infections. I am still torn over the tube issue, she got the tubes put in back in march and has been fighting ear infections since. The last two weeks have been unbearable she wakes up every hour to two hours in pain screaming, the doctors are no help at this point, even the ENT (ear, nose and throat dr) has been little help. I need sleep, Bella needs sleep and out of pain. I am hoping this new dr. I found will have answers that we need!

I had my 1st parent/teacher conference for Roxy. I am so proud of my 1st grader! After the conference I had to run to the bathroom I started crying. I couldn't believe that my little 6 lb 3 oz baby who came into this world was in 1st grade and growing up! I am so proud to be able to say she's my daughter!

Bella was a bumble bee and Roxy was a Butterfly and they were both gorgeous! Bella found a new love... lollipops! Roxy was more then pleased with her loot! Can't wait til next year!

I settled on the themes for Bella and Roxy's birthdays. People think I am nuts that I plan so early but, I must say planning early has saved me many headaches and has helped me find some amazing deals! Bella's 2nd Birthday Party is going to be Candy land theme I walked into target and was in heaven I found amazing deals for candy themed decor in the Christmas section and there in the perfect colors pink, green, aqua and purple! Found candy land board games for a dollar at toys r us for goodie bag favors!! Roxy is having a movie star themed birthday and I found popcorn buckets in the dollar section at target and movie star sunglasses for a dollar too. I love targets dollar section I think i spend more money there sometimes then I do in the actual store lol!

I must say this year has been going by super fast and I am glad it is coming to a close. I am looking forward to 2011! A new year, a new start... it feels refreshing! So until the end of December I will be listing my goals for next year every Friday. I have a long list of things I want to accomplish and 2011 is my year to do it! :) What goals and/or changes to you have for the new year?

Bella Basket Boutique Give away!

As everyone knows I have started going back to school for event planning/floral design and business. I LOVE birthdays, gifts and making people happy. My favorite thing to do for birthday parties and special gifts is make gift baskets. So I decided I am going to try a new side business venture and see how it works. I am pleased to announce the opening of Bella Basket Boutique!

 (Roxy helped picked the name out she she put her hands on her hips and told me Roxy is a huge surfing business I shouldn't complicate people and just make it Bella's name... my daughter is amazing!)

I am having a giveaway on my Bella Basket Boutique page. I just did a princess themed basket for my friend's daughters birthday party and I will be giving a away a free Princess/dress up girls themed basket to one lucky winner. You can get up to three entries for a chance to win. One entry each for leaving a comment, adding me as a follower and/or posting my give away on your page! Good Luck give away ends Sunday October 17 at midnight.

 Each Month there will be a give a way. November: Boys car/truck basket. December: Christmas Goodies Basket (candies, cookies, hot coco etc.) So check back often for updated basket designs, give aways and more!

tears, birthdays and ghost oh my!

I started school this week and it has def. been a little bit harder then I thought. Not, the school part that has been going great the whole, Bella going to daycare. Seems like this year things are changing all the time. But, in a good way!
1st day of day care Bella and I cried together as i left, 2nd day Bella looks a little sad but, no tears just mommy, today it was all me! I think she likes it each time I have picked her up she is playing and seems to be all smiles (fingers crossed)

Roxy is doing great and doesn't mind the change of not having me pick her up and going to day care after school.

Floral/event planning school is going great as well. I am busy in a good kind of way. But, come 9 pm I am tired and worn out and all I want is sleep.

This past weekend we started decorating for Halloween... Bella is not as thrilled as Roxy on the other hand. She wants nothing to do with ghost and scary things... I think when she realizes there is candy involved she will come around :)

And today is Grady's Birthday... Bella's daddy is 32 today! Happy Birthday! Only 11 more days til mine :)

don't look over here just a crazy mommy crying...

Bella starts day care monday... All night I couldn't sleep. All I could think about this is my last day as a stay at home mommy with her! I know going back to school is great not only for me but, for my kids as well. I know having a job that will make me happy will benifit not only me but them as well. I know having a job will benifit them as well. But, someone please tell my heart that cause it's breaking in two! Luckly her day care as camera's and I can go online and see how my lil munkey is doing. Roxy will be going there after school and I will be able  to go check on her as well! My heart feels like I am being a bad mom but, my minds tell me I am nuts! I feel torn! Either way I will have a box of tissues ready monday cause I know I will need them!

what's better then cupcakes? Cupcakes with Champagne

I LOVE CUPCAKES! There so perfect and just the right size. I normally never add water to the mix I usally use fruit nectar makes them moist and adds an amazing flavor!

Over the weekend I thought I would practice making some cupcakes. I wanted an "adult" cupcake. Grady's (Bella's daddy) Birthday is coming up and he will be the big 3-2! So I wanted to make something special! I took french vanilla cupcake mix and instead of adding water I added peach champagne. Added some fresh diced peaches to the batter and baked them. Made homemade cream cheese frosting and a ill more peach champagne to the icing mix. Then I topped them off with toasted coconut they were delish!

Busy Mommy

Sometimes I wander if I am the only mom that gets in a hurry and does some not so smart things. Sometimes my mind goes a 100 miles a minute and things just are crazy. Takes these examples.


I was in a huge hurry yesterday and I needed to feed the girls fast!! The only thing I could find that they could eat in the car were lil packages of bite sized brownies. Breakfast being the most important meal of the day, what did I do? Yup, you guessed it I fed them brownies. All day I couldn't stop thinking about it, what kind of mom would feed her girls brownies at 630 am? Why didn't I throw some dry cereal in a baggie? After hours of beating myself up over it I realized, hey they ate and it's a memory that Roxy will probably have forever. She told her Maw-Maw that she had to hurry up and leave so she had brownies for breakfast and it was the best ever. Now, will I fed my children brownies everyday? NO! But, I am not going to beat myself up over a lil brownie they ate anymore.

When Roxy was 3 I somehow locked my keys in my car not really sure how I did this but I did it. I was freaking out. The car was on so she had air but, I on the other hand was freaking out anyways. I was crying, all i could think abut is how my little baby was in the car and I couldn't get to hear. She kept yelling and yelling I was assuming she was yelling cause she was alone in the car and I was too busy yelling and crying telling her to be calm to really hear what she was yelling about. Finally I got myself together and went to her window and said "mommy's going to find a way to unlock the doors stay calm I love you" Roxy's response was "MOMMY i've been yelling at you, I already unlocked my door!" My heart dropped and I went to open her door and she was right she had unlocked it already! I learned a couple of lessons that day. My lil baby isn't a lil baby and she can unlock doors and I really need to learn and listen!

About a week or two Roxy decided it was time to teach her lil sister Bella it was time to play hide and seek. I was in the kitchen making dinner and on an important phone call Roxy kept trying to tell me something but I told her fine later I am on the phone without really listening to what she was asking. After my call was finished i went to the living room to ask her what she wanted and they weren't there! I kept yelling for them, no answer! I looked everywhere in every room searching for them! Finally I found them in hall closet! I look at Roxy and ask her what the heck she was thinking? "I told you we were going to hide now and you had to find us while you were on the phone!" I learned never to say fine without knowing the question, atleast it was hide and seek and she didn't ask to get a tattoo :)

When Roxy was about 3 she woke up really early and asked me if she get cereal. I was half asleep  and said sure. She came back about 10 minutes later and asked if she could make me some. Being still half asleep I said sure again. About 20 minutes later I woke up and thought I better go check on her. I get to the kitchen and what do I see? Eggs, sugar and flour all over the floor and Roxy sitting in the middle of it with a spoon. I was shocked! She looked up at me and in the sweetest lil voice ever " Mommy, I am making you a cake cause your the best mommy ever!" After hours of scrubbing I realized then I wish I would have taken a moment to just enjoy it with her. To have taken a picture. I still to this day beat myself up about that day. So another lesson learned it might seem bad at the moment but, years from now it will be a sweet lil memory that sticks out. Take pictures of everything cause, 4 years later they are funny and sweet!

25 things on my mind

1. Flipping threw channels the other night I saw Kate plus 8 on TLC... Roxy was born a day after the  sextuplets were... and they are still in high chairs, I got really bothered by it who puts a 6 year old in a high chair when they are old enough to sit in a chair kind of creeped me out.

2.  I am addicted to watching teen mom on MTV. Embarrassing to admit but true.

3. I really really need a mani/pedi

4. I am on a new diet and skinny cow chocolate truffle bars are amazing! There a 100 calories and they really curb my sweet tooth.

5. Roxy is starting soccer in October she seems super excited, I on the other hand am happy for her but not excited about the 7 am Saturday games

6. My Birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks and I can't believe I am going to be 26... sad part is I feel older :(

7. My Birthday is coming up and I love marble slab's ice cream cake :)

8. My Birthday is coming up and I love gifts and cards that my kiddos make me :)

9. My favorite number is 8. I won $500.00 on roulette by putting all my chips on 8 on my birthday last year!

10.You want me to shut up about my birthday, don't you?

11. I'm craving marble slab ice cream now!

12. I have no idea what I am going to make for dinner!

13. I decided on Bella's birthday theme

14. IT'S CANDY LAND!

15. I cant believe my babies are going to be 7 and 2 next year!

16. Now I feel even older!

17. I am almost 26 and still scared of the dark!

18. Maybe this year is the year my fear goes away?

19. Nahhh! I went 26 years I will probably go another 26 years being scared

20. I have a horrible headache from going cold turkey without Cokes since i am on a diet

21. Caffeine headaches are almost as bad as migraines!

22. I got the girls Halloween costumes!

23. October is my favorite month!

24. Fall is my favorite season!

25. I am going to go cuddle with my kiddos and enjoy my FRIDAY! What about you?

Yeeee Hawwwww!

Starting tomorrow the Fort Bend County Fair starts! Roxy's school district takes this very seriously as tomorrow there off of school and can get into the fair for free... I hear a funnel cake calling me!! So I am planning on taking the girls to the fair tomorrow for some fun! Today at school was go western day and Roxy was allowed to wear her "cowgirl" attire! What can I say I say one proud mommy :)

Ta-Dah!

After 3 days or organizing and Roxy's dresser finally coming in... ORGANIZATION 2010 is complete... well almost Bella's other dresser still has to get moved from my mom's house but, other then that there rooms and clothes are organized. I got rid of so many toys and clothes is was unreal!! So all that has to be done in both of there rooms is painting the walls and hanging up all pictures and stuff I have for them. Bella's two dressers are going  to get repainted aqua/shabby chic/distressed but, i am not going to do that til fall when its not 100 out side and mosquito's sucking the life out of me every 2 seconds... 

Roxy's walls are going to be painted a pale pink... but the main the ceiling is where its all happening were putting in a white chandelier and painting the ceiling hot pink with pale pink damask print! I have a bench in front of her window I still need to repaint black and reupholster.

Bella's room is getting painted a light shimmer green (think lime green but down 4 stages) and she will have hummingbirds and tulips on her walls. My mom got her this great white picture frame from hobby lobby and soon we are going to to take a family picture so she can have it in her room!

I am really happy that I was able to accomplish all of it, cause there where many many many times I wanted to throw in the towel! School starts in less then 2 weeks and I am so excited about it! Hope everyone is having a great Wednesday! I'll be sure to post some pictures of there rooms soon! And don't forget if your looking for someone for your floral needs and/or event planning I am at your service! Oh, and please take my poll on my business name for my event planning. Even though I will be working a floral shop for a while I want to start my business looking to do (fun amazing kid's parties for busy parents so they can relax and share the day with there special "munkey" of theirs but, of course will do any event/party) And feel free if you think of any other names that aren't on my poll to just comment me. Can't wait to hear yall's responses!!!
update: My poll is located on the right side at the top! THANKS for yall's time and input!

What a weekend!

sorry I haven't posted much things have been busy. Bella still is sick and I spent all weekend with her and trying to organize the girls rooms. am trying to get everything all together so it can be painted and everything can be hung on the walls. Bella has tubal surgery on her ears Thursday. So I am hoping that things are going to go OK with that. I start school in a couple of weeks so, I will try to set aside time to blog more regularly. Hope everyone has a good Monday and great week!

I picked what I am going to school for... drum roll please!

After going back in forth between this job and that job. I put a lot of thought in what I really wanted to do and figured the best thing I could do is something I love that makes me happy and will make me proud of myself. So I won't hold it in any longer I am going back to college for... EVENT PLANNING/FLORAL design and Business. Lucky my Business major can all be done online. My event planning/floral design will all be hands on and I couldn't be happier about my choice. I am so looking forward to going to my new classes in October and I hope that with a lot of hard work one day soon I will have my own floral/event planning shop! So here is to a new journey in my life that I couldn't be more happy about!

why oh why did you fail us?

My poor poor Bellaroo... 6 months ago she had tubes put in her ears. The dr, said the pros out weighed the cons. I did what any normal anxiety ridden mother would do and got 2nd opinions, talked to other moms, looked the surgery up and after all the 2nd opinions, all signs pointed to that it needed to be done. Ever since the tubes have been put in we have still had ear infections... some worse then before the tubes were even out in. THEY FAILED! 12 days ago we went to Bella's pedi. and double ear infections over the weekend i knew something was up she wasn't acting like her self so this morning i took her in to see her dr, and yet again a another ear  infection! So now they are wanting to take them out and redo them! Being as over protective as I am red flags are going up... if they didn't work the 1st time why will they work this time? Bella can only say a handful of words as is what if this is causing her to loose her hearing? Should i put her through another surgery that could fail yet again??? I want answers, I need answers! I just don't know what to do or not to do so, if anyone has dealt with this please let me know!

even sick she's still cute as can be

HUGGIES YOU SUCK!

Dear Huggies diaper company, 

there is no other way to say this then YOU SUCK!! You have failed me you have ruined my day by exploding all over the place. You are banned from my daughter's adorable tush! Thanks so much for making my Saturday suck cause i will be cleaning those nice "absorbent crystals" all day and washing her bedding multiple times! And the most upsetting for this all THEY WERE OVER NIGHT DIAPERS! My money will go back to fisher-price over night diapers and Target for day time use! Amazingly they are cheaper then your sucky diapers; and guess what there absorbent crystals are actually absorbent! 

Miss.Bella's been working on potty training!

*this blog is my opinion that huggies SUCK but please feel free to use any brand of diapers you like! If you like exploding non-absorbent diapers and like cleaning and washing your child's entire room multiple times a day I totally recommend huggies diapers!*

FUNNY FRIDAY

sorry i haven't posted anything this week i have been really busy with Bella and looking into Daycare (sigh) So i will be back to full blogging tomorrow but i thought id make today a funny friday!  So here is a pic of Miss.Bella her car seat was inside the house and she decided to make herself right at home! Hope everyone has a happy Friday and has something funny happen cause laughter goes a long way!!

i did it!!!

I took a step forward into trying to not be so social awkward! Thursday Roxy's school had an open house. I asked my mom to come with me but, she had other plans. All day Thursday I yo-yoed between going and not going. I picked Roxy up from school and she handed me an invite to open house that she personally made. I decided then and there my daughter deserved to have her mom go. So I got dressed, cried in my car, composed my self and walked into her school and did it! I know it seems like such a small feat but, its a one step close in reaching my goal. I talked to other parents, joined the school's PTO and talked to her teacher. I was was just happy I did it for Roxy! So I DID IT!!!! I have a long journey ahead of me but, at least I have the right foot forward!

me and roxy after open house!
I know yall just love my sideways pics!

homework, uniforms, lunches oh my!

i consider myself a laid back kind of parent who likes fun but also likes organization and a lil routine. Roxy was in a private kindergarten so i knew going to public school would be a little different.
A lot of parents love uniforms for one reason or another but I on the other hand am not one of those people. In our school district its only elementary school that has uniforms each school is different. Roxy has the choice of black khaki or navy skirt, dresses, capri's, shorts, pants and navy white and red polo type shirts. I HATE it i can't stand it cause, even with uniforms its a hassle, you have to make sure it's washed, you still have the buy regular clothes for after school and weekends. It gives a child no self expression and I HATE IT! I know some people are going to think I am nuts what kind of parent doesn't like uniforms well I am that parent. I had to wear uniforms from 1st to 9th grade! In high school is probley when you would need uniforms the most if your worried about people making fun of people. I love Roxy's school but this, is one thing I am not happy about. I know just because I don't like it doesn't mean it will change so that means 5 years of uniforms are in store for me.
I let Roxy buy school lunch the other day I gave her 5$ thinking she would come home with some change... I was wrong she used all the money and bought a grilled cheese, yogurt, fruit cup and milk... School lunches have really gone up in price since I was in school.
  I was reading a blog the other day and the mom was saying how happy she wa her 4 year old could read... I think that's great but,  I am happy that my 6 yr old is just starting to read. I wanted her to be a child as long as she could it goes by too fast! I think it's absurd having 1st graders doing 2 hours of homework... They spend 8 hours at school a day and then 2 hours of homework I THINK NOT! I believe in homework but, there should be a limit. An adult who goes to work will work 8 hours and call it a day (in most cases) and not bring there work home they have had a enough well kids are the same! She's not studying to be a brain surgeon shes going to school to learn to learn 1st grader things.
I remember in 1st grade learning adding and subtraction now they make you learn fractions! I guess the point I am trying to make is I want my kids to go to college and do great in high school but I don't want them to want to feel over whelmed. I just think that school's are trying to push a little to hard... I want my daughter to play with barbies and dress up and be a child as long as possible of course I want her to learn but, I think there needs to be a middle ground. Kids want to grow up faster and faster, they have cell phones and tv shows about being teen moms even nickolean that used to have cartoons when i came home from school has shows about being in high school and not living at home. So I know Roxy will continue to learn at school and get smarter and brighter every day but, at home I will try my hardest to always instill you have the rest of your life to be an adult you only have 18 years as a kid!

i will be back tomorrow i promise... ok ill try

Miss. Bella woke up this morning with eyes crusted shut!!! So after a Dr's visit we learned she not only has pink eye, double ear infections and a viral infection but, she weighs in at 37 lbs! Roxy and Bella are ten lbs apart! I have been working on a post since Sunday and hopefully I will have it finished tomorrow and be up to normal blogging but, for now I am going to go cuddle with my crusty eyed baby and make her feel better!

As i was about to push publish post my cell rings Roxy's school nurse called to tell me she had a bad nose bleed... so now I am off to go cuddle with my crust eyed baby and my bloody nosed baby "1st Grader" ooooooo what a day!

it might be a copycat but its delish!

I love going to La Madeleine. There strawberries romanoff are to die for fresh strawberries with a creamy sauce. Well I decided to try my hand at trying to make my own version at home. And I have to say it came out perfect! Now I can have my favorite simple dessert anytime i want. So here is my copycat recipe

16 oz. of sour cream
2 tablespoons brown sugar (light or dark will both work i tried both so use whatever is on hand)
1 or 2 cap fulls of liquor (brandy is what la Madeleine uses but i tried both vodka, brandy and Kahlua and they all taste great, if its just for all adults you can use more to liquor to taste)

and add it all together and mix in a bowl chill for an hour or two and serve over strawberries
the other night i did mixed berries and it was amazing!!

 

life can be fun even with underwear on your head....

I think this picture says it all...



I decided since I started blogging that I need to step out side of my social norm....Most people don't know this about me but I am shy and very social awkward. I get anxiety going to places I have never been. I get nervous when I have be around people I don't know. My stomach starts to hurt my body starts to shake i get sweaty which makes me freak out more cause I hate being sweaty. So then I start panicking about the fact I have to meet new people and be sweaty. It really tears me into pieces and because of that I have missed out on things. 

Since having kids it has forced me to step out of my comfort zone and do things that I wouldn't necessarily like to. Kids birthday parties are the worst when you don't know any parents and it was very hard for me to get comfortable with this. I had to break out of the box and do it for my kids cause they deserved to have some fun.

Even in the blogging world i get nervous to comment what if they hate my opinion or what if they think my comment is dumb, I over think everything and take things way to personal. Theres a fellow blogger I have been following for years I would blog then stop blog then stop but would always follow her blogs. The other day I got a pretty nasty comment that tore me into pieces I started crying like a 2 yr old who just dropped there ice cream cone and went on her blog and noticed she has a comment policy and even her blog would get nasty comments... Made me realize that even her blog that i find so amazing gets not so nice comments and I got myself together wiped my tears and realized this is MY blog and I am in control. I do have a delete button and I do have the right to write about whatever I choose. People might not like me and people might not care about what I have to say but, that's ok cause mommyof2lilmunkeys is mine!!

With that being said i have a new goal for myself: I will try daily to try to do something that I would normally never do because of social anxiety. I don't have to be scared cause just like in blogging everyone might not like me but it doesn't matter I wont miss out on life because of other people! So I challenge you do something you normally wouldn't do push your self just a little and see what could happen!

This post got me thirsty...

I was at Kroger's today and i love trying new drinks they have! I am a drinker hehe ....

I am talking non-alcoholic drinks. Hey don't get me wrong I have my favorite adult drinks too but, to start off we will go down the list of my all time favorite drinks. Some are still around some were fads and far gone but I love them and that's all that counts!

My new fav, i found it at Kroger and I love it! It's called mash and at 40 calories a serving its delish! Its real fruit with sparkling water and I love the mango-blood orange flavor!


Juices:
*cranberry -i love it! i know its a hit and miss for some its one of those drinks you either love or hate but for me its a love
*apple- my kids like it and i don't mind sitting back with an apple juice box and animal crackers any day with them!
*orange- has to be non pulp just has it be!
*lemonade- i don't know if that even is a juice drink but hey it's my post and i will make it be, when i was pregnant with both girls i couldn't get enough lemonade it was like a drug morning noon and night i needed that sweet sour fix!


sodas:
*coke I love coke rather it be cherry or regular I'm a coke girl bottom line


Fad drinks *if you have seen these people let me know where i can find them... I NEED THEM :)

i loved those weird gel beads...Orbitz where are you!

*orbitz- had weird gel things floating around but i loved it and i miss it!

*fruitopia- i used to love these they were amazingly refresh and fruity

UPDATE: I did find these on sale online but at $3+ a bottle plus shipping seems a lil excessive for some flavored water...

*clearly Canadian water- oh i used to drink these like they were going out of style i loved the raspberries n cream!

me and my jolt with out any makeup on but, i don't care i love my jolt :)

****jolt soda**** i hadn't seen one in years half soda all energy and then i was in Kroger yesterday and there she was in the refrigerated section scaring me in the eye... i started yelling Roxy omg omg they have jolt they have jolt soda, she looked away and said really mom what's your deal.

Random:
iced tea
red bull
and there are more but those are my fav's and my favorite adult drink is cherry vodka sour and 7up and crown with a squirt of lemon
*NO I CANT BE SIMPLE I DON'T KNOW THE MEANING :)*

Sleepover Memories...

After I pick Roxy up from school I always ask her how was her day, did she eat all her lunch, what kind of work did she do, did she meet any new friends etc. She always answers back and tells me what she did etc.  And today starting talking about her new friends and what they are like and asks me about having a sleep over.

I told her i would think about it since we just moved a month ago where still in the unpacking process so there's still a lot going on at home but, between me and you I was screaming inside "of course a sleep over is great how much fun it can be"

I asked her what she would want to eat and do and of course candy, pizza, and cookies came out and then of course to watch icarley,Hannah,big time rush etc.

It got me thinking about sleepovers when i was younger and what we did and I thought I would share some of my sleepover moments and I think i am old enough to not get in trouble for whatever i did back then :)

 When I was probley 11 or 12 I had a sleepover and thought it would be an amazing idea to eat a whole bag of pop rocks and down a soda on a dare ( if anyone knows the whole story "MYTH" about Mikey from the life cereal box dying from doing that it was a big time dare) So i open my pop rocks and down my soda and no i didn't die. BUT, it drank so much soda so fast pop rocks and soda shot out of my nose all over are sofa. So if your ever dared to do this no you won't die but, your nose might tingle for a while.

 Then at another sleep over when i was in 8th grade or so me and a group of my friends decided to play light as a feather stiff as a board.

if you don't know the game one person lays down and everyone gathers around them and places on finger underneath and tries to pick them up while saying "light as a feather stiff as a board"

During this time the movie the craft was a HUGE deal and were swore that we picked our friend up. The whole night we were way to scared to sleep cause we were sure there was a ghost with us.

When I was in junior high I thought I was so cool so my and my "BFF" thought that it would be great to prank call people so we spent the whole night calling and asking people if there fridge was running and when they would answer "yes" we should scream why don't you go catch it... wow we weren't cool at all we were so dumb lol!

And everyone has there own TP/wrapping a house with toilet paper story! I was in 8th grade and me and my friends thought it was the best idea ever after it rained to go TP our friends house so we grabbed the TP and dressed all in black and went out at midnight. We got there and TPed the house and everything was going great til a dog came by and starting barking and we all got scared and ran off i was running in the grass and slipped and hit my head on the stop sign: if any lesson was learned from this it probably was never TP a house after it rains and make sure you have dog food with you cause I can honestly say I have more TP adventures and i didn't learn my lesson i have more TP'ING stories but I will share those another day lol

Now that I think of all the things I did maybe I can wait til sleepovers begin j.k. I am cool mom :) and I want roxy to have fun so bring on the nail polish, makeup, tv shows, dress up and junk food cause my lil girl isn't a baby anymore and she deserves the fun just as much as i did!

its going to be a mouth full

lets see where to begin oh ya the person that's posting rude nasty comments on my blog, i asked you kindly to please stop now I am just going to say it STOP! Whomever you are is posting comments anonymously so you have something to say about me or my blog say it to me! I am not needing drama your thoughts and opinions are yours and mine are mine and every negative rude nasty comment you post will be deleted. So with that said here is a picture of Miss.Bella and I hope everyone has a great "hump" day!

she's a wanted baby for being so cute :)

My name is Jen and I am a... OVER PLANNER

Its so sad and so true! I over plan everything! I didn't realize until Sunday how bad my obsession is! Grady and I were eating at Star Pizza (if you have never been you NEED to go!! It's incredible they even have whole wheat crust) and I was talking to him about Bella's 2nd birthday and what theme we should go with and he looked up and me and said you realize it is only August right and her birthday is in March.... well of course I realize that! Well maybe i realize that ummm no i guess i don't realize that cause I love to plan! And it's not just birthday party's its everything. Christmas, birthday gifts, redecorating, grocery list, even packing. If we go on vacation I will plan weeks in advance write down everything i need to take even what colors bras etc to bring I told you it's an obsession. But, by far the worest is the girls birthday party's I have a binder with divders in it....

1. birthday theme - this is the 1st step process where i go online or kids magazines and look at the different themes, i try to not get pre-done themes i like to make things by own so there will be print out of things i think are cute example: bella had a zebra themed 1st birthday i went to hobby lobby and saw zebra tissue paper and it went from there!
2. THE THEME DECOR- this a a huge one in the binder this is where i pick colors and I find things on websites for decor where i even will map out rooms in the house or backyard to place things
3. Invites and Guest List- where have invite ideas and the guest list of people attending with there addresses and rsvp check list
4. CAKE- the most important part of the birthday party where i will find cake ideas online and do my own drawings for cakes.
5. FOOD- the divider section where i list food ideas and where i put the grocery list
6. Party Favors- I told you this obsession was sick i even have a sections for kids favors and i normaly try to even have adult favors as well
7. Gifts- What's a party without gifts where i write down gifts and figure out what kind of gifts bags and wrapping paper i use.
8. Outfit- Yes i even plan what they have to wear and i wont lie i plan out what i am going to wear
If your nice i might upload a pic or two of this binder :)

Yes... it's one of those serious type of posts

i have no idea why i cant turn this picture so just turn your head...

Being a mother is an amazing thing. My two girls are my world. We have had ups and downs like any other family but bottom line I try to do what's best for Roxy and Bella. I will admit to anyone that my parenting might but be perfect but, let's face it who's is. Mistakes happen everyone makes them. Some big some small but mistakes happen everyday. Today was Roxy's 1st day of school. She had a million emotions going through her: she was happy,scared, sad, excited, shy (between me and you she was yelling on the inside) worried, and nervous all at the same time. I walked her into her classroom and she had one tear run down the side of her cheek. It took everything I had in me not to cry myself. I told her I loved her and not to cry and I would be there to pick her up when school gets out. As I walked to my car I realized I don't think I am as bad as a parent as I think. My daughter cried cause she does love me she will miss me but, she does know I will be back. She will meet friends and things will get easier but, I will always remember today and that look she gave me. This being kind of personal I will share some things about my life as a mother. Roxy and Bella have two different dads. Roxy's dad was apart of her life til she was 3 and then decided that wasn't what he wanted. As a mother I try to balance things. Bella's dad is in her life and sees her 2 to 4 times a week depending whats going on. I deal daily with trying to make Roxy feel included and Bella feeling like her daddy is her daddy. Its a hard struggle and balance. I bitch at times about how I wish this was this way or that was this way but in the end it is what it is. Being a co-parent is hard when one parent isn't there everyday... everyday to hear the screams but also to see the funny things as well, its hard bottom line being a parent is hard, nothing is ever perfect...The mom that has to work that wants to be home,the one that is trying to better themselves, or the parent who's out of work that needs to go to work,or the parent that is doing it all alone, the parent that has the happy home from the outside but inside is screaming to want out etc. Everyone has a tag or a label or something they wish they could change, maybe forever or maybe just at the moment.  I am a mother and I am there for my girls. People seem to think that its not normal to complain it is and it is hard but, it is what it is and it's not going to change. With that said my blog is about my life and my feelings and It's my life and my kids. I AM NOT PERFECT BUT I AM THERE MOM AND I WILL DO THINGS MY WAY... it may not be perfect but, I have two pretty amazing kids and they couldn't have gotten that way all on there own.

Side note: I love comments, i mean love them they make my day! They make me wanna do cartwheels and scream WOOOOOOO!!! But, comments that are going to be super personal or not kind I don't need so please when you comment remember it's not just me reading them! Thanks!

Bella's daddy is a winner... well his band is they won best metal by houston press

Well Bella's daddy's band won the Houston press best metal band last week! So I decided that i should honor him and make Bella a cute shirt! So I did! And i must happen to say I think its pretty darn cute! We going to take Bella to totspot at the Children's museum on Sunday and I am going to let her rock that shirt! I probably don't tell him much (between me and you I give him hell for being in the bands he is in) but, he is pretty good and he deserves to win she has a pretty amazing daddy who one day will teach her to rock out on her own guitar... like father like daughter! Here is a clip of the song you made for her and its called what else "Bella"!! So drink and beer and kick back and rock out to some good death metal today cause I am making it a national holiday of "Bella's Daddy Rocks Day"




Bella by Grady*Link to Miss.Bella's Song!