I decided since I started blogging that I need to step out side of my social norm....Most people don't know this about me but I am shy and very social awkward. I get anxiety going to places I have never been. I get nervous when I have be around people I don't know. My stomach starts to hurt my body starts to shake i get sweaty which makes me freak out more cause I hate being sweaty. So then I start panicking about the fact I have to meet new people and be sweaty. It really tears me into pieces and because of that I have missed out on things.
Since having kids it has forced me to step out of my comfort zone and do things that I wouldn't necessarily like to. Kids birthday parties are the worst when you don't know any parents and it was very hard for me to get comfortable with this. I had to break out of the box and do it for my kids cause they deserved to have some fun.
Even in the blogging world i get nervous to comment what if they hate my opinion or what if they think my comment is dumb, I over think everything and take things way to personal. Theres a fellow blogger I have been following for years I would blog then stop blog then stop but would always follow her blogs. The other day I got a pretty nasty comment that tore me into pieces I started crying like a 2 yr old who just dropped there ice cream cone and went on her blog and noticed she has a comment policy and even her blog would get nasty comments... Made me realize that even her blog that i find so amazing gets not so nice comments and I got myself together wiped my tears and realized this is MY blog and I am in control. I do have a delete button and I do have the right to write about whatever I choose. People might not like me and people might not care about what I have to say but, that's ok cause mommyof2lilmunkeys is mine!!
With that being said i have a new goal for myself: I will try daily to try to do something that I would normally never do because of social anxiety. I don't have to be scared cause just like in blogging everyone might not like me but it doesn't matter I wont miss out on life because of other people! So I challenge you do something you normally wouldn't do push your self just a little and see what could happen!