Busy Mommy

Sometimes I wander if I am the only mom that gets in a hurry and does some not so smart things. Sometimes my mind goes a 100 miles a minute and things just are crazy. Takes these examples.


I was in a huge hurry yesterday and I needed to feed the girls fast!! The only thing I could find that they could eat in the car were lil packages of bite sized brownies. Breakfast being the most important meal of the day, what did I do? Yup, you guessed it I fed them brownies. All day I couldn't stop thinking about it, what kind of mom would feed her girls brownies at 630 am? Why didn't I throw some dry cereal in a baggie? After hours of beating myself up over it I realized, hey they ate and it's a memory that Roxy will probably have forever. She told her Maw-Maw that she had to hurry up and leave so she had brownies for breakfast and it was the best ever. Now, will I fed my children brownies everyday? NO! But, I am not going to beat myself up over a lil brownie they ate anymore.

When Roxy was 3 I somehow locked my keys in my car not really sure how I did this but I did it. I was freaking out. The car was on so she had air but, I on the other hand was freaking out anyways. I was crying, all i could think abut is how my little baby was in the car and I couldn't get to hear. She kept yelling and yelling I was assuming she was yelling cause she was alone in the car and I was too busy yelling and crying telling her to be calm to really hear what she was yelling about. Finally I got myself together and went to her window and said "mommy's going to find a way to unlock the doors stay calm I love you" Roxy's response was "MOMMY i've been yelling at you, I already unlocked my door!" My heart dropped and I went to open her door and she was right she had unlocked it already! I learned a couple of lessons that day. My lil baby isn't a lil baby and she can unlock doors and I really need to learn and listen!

About a week or two Roxy decided it was time to teach her lil sister Bella it was time to play hide and seek. I was in the kitchen making dinner and on an important phone call Roxy kept trying to tell me something but I told her fine later I am on the phone without really listening to what she was asking. After my call was finished i went to the living room to ask her what she wanted and they weren't there! I kept yelling for them, no answer! I looked everywhere in every room searching for them! Finally I found them in hall closet! I look at Roxy and ask her what the heck she was thinking? "I told you we were going to hide now and you had to find us while you were on the phone!" I learned never to say fine without knowing the question, atleast it was hide and seek and she didn't ask to get a tattoo :)

When Roxy was about 3 she woke up really early and asked me if she get cereal. I was half asleep  and said sure. She came back about 10 minutes later and asked if she could make me some. Being still half asleep I said sure again. About 20 minutes later I woke up and thought I better go check on her. I get to the kitchen and what do I see? Eggs, sugar and flour all over the floor and Roxy sitting in the middle of it with a spoon. I was shocked! She looked up at me and in the sweetest lil voice ever " Mommy, I am making you a cake cause your the best mommy ever!" After hours of scrubbing I realized then I wish I would have taken a moment to just enjoy it with her. To have taken a picture. I still to this day beat myself up about that day. So another lesson learned it might seem bad at the moment but, years from now it will be a sweet lil memory that sticks out. Take pictures of everything cause, 4 years later they are funny and sweet!

i did it!!!

I took a step forward into trying to not be so social awkward! Thursday Roxy's school had an open house. I asked my mom to come with me but, she had other plans. All day Thursday I yo-yoed between going and not going. I picked Roxy up from school and she handed me an invite to open house that she personally made. I decided then and there my daughter deserved to have her mom go. So I got dressed, cried in my car, composed my self and walked into her school and did it! I know it seems like such a small feat but, its a one step close in reaching my goal. I talked to other parents, joined the school's PTO and talked to her teacher. I was was just happy I did it for Roxy! So I DID IT!!!! I have a long journey ahead of me but, at least I have the right foot forward!

me and roxy after open house!
I know yall just love my sideways pics!

life can be fun even with underwear on your head....

I think this picture says it all...



I decided since I started blogging that I need to step out side of my social norm....Most people don't know this about me but I am shy and very social awkward. I get anxiety going to places I have never been. I get nervous when I have be around people I don't know. My stomach starts to hurt my body starts to shake i get sweaty which makes me freak out more cause I hate being sweaty. So then I start panicking about the fact I have to meet new people and be sweaty. It really tears me into pieces and because of that I have missed out on things. 

Since having kids it has forced me to step out of my comfort zone and do things that I wouldn't necessarily like to. Kids birthday parties are the worst when you don't know any parents and it was very hard for me to get comfortable with this. I had to break out of the box and do it for my kids cause they deserved to have some fun.

Even in the blogging world i get nervous to comment what if they hate my opinion or what if they think my comment is dumb, I over think everything and take things way to personal. Theres a fellow blogger I have been following for years I would blog then stop blog then stop but would always follow her blogs. The other day I got a pretty nasty comment that tore me into pieces I started crying like a 2 yr old who just dropped there ice cream cone and went on her blog and noticed she has a comment policy and even her blog would get nasty comments... Made me realize that even her blog that i find so amazing gets not so nice comments and I got myself together wiped my tears and realized this is MY blog and I am in control. I do have a delete button and I do have the right to write about whatever I choose. People might not like me and people might not care about what I have to say but, that's ok cause mommyof2lilmunkeys is mine!!

With that being said i have a new goal for myself: I will try daily to try to do something that I would normally never do because of social anxiety. I don't have to be scared cause just like in blogging everyone might not like me but it doesn't matter I wont miss out on life because of other people! So I challenge you do something you normally wouldn't do push your self just a little and see what could happen!

The B's, Back Pain, Bella,Roxy B and a Blow out!

since i have been busy as a bee trying to get as much done as i can this week, it figures that since i have a million and one things to do my back would lut me in my place and cause serious pain! I mean serious pain, i think this is right up there with labor pains! I move a certain way and I get sharp shooting my pains the run up my left side, and with Bella who has to be carried up the stairs still it's not helping the situation one bite (and considering she weighs almost 40 lbs that doesnt help at all) So if it keeps up thru the night I think unpacking will be on hold and a trip to the doctor will be in store!

Bella is learning to crawl up the stairs she laughs and thinks it's the best thing ever! Me, on the other hand thinks its going to give me a heart attack! Scares the daylights out of me... every tiem she goes near them I think of the million things that could go wrong! Any one have any tips/ideas etc. for how they deal/dealt with a toddler with stairs. Every since she started walking she has been my lil dare devil and she's not even two yet... please help me! :)

Roxy is going to her last day of day care tomorrow. She has made some amazing friends and she has a lil boyfriend -even though she wont admit it to anyone else-(his name starts with an R and they are so cute)So I made her an email address and shes going to pass out lil treats with a note with her email address so all her friends can keep in touch! I am sooooo proud of her!

I have needed tires for about a week one thing or another came up and it got put on the back burner. Today I knew I had to get it done. As soon as I am entering the dealership to get new tires it happens... A BLOWOUT sounds like a gun shot and my car just starts shaking! Lesson learned don't put off important things and thank goodness me and Bella were safe!